y-56 "Fallen Leaves at Home"
y-55 to y-59 "Fallen Leaves at Home": All five photos in "Fallen Leaves at Home" were taken on my home terrace. It was a day in the summer of 2022 when our community was suddenly locked down. All residents were forbidden to leave their homes except for daily nucleic acid testing at a designated time and place. A neighbor, whose house was separated from mine by one building, couldn't even go downstairs for the test. The occurrence of this event was without any notification or announcement. Neighbors could only guess that a positive case was detected in the building that couldn't go downstairs for the test. The lockdown of the community has happened many times in the city where I live, so I was very calm during the first three days. When I went downstairs for the test and waited in line, I would sneak pictures of the flowers planted by my neighbors (the control staff did not allow us to take pictures, fearing cross-contamination). We spent three peaceful days like this, and everyone's test results were negative.
On the fourth day at noon, I was suddenly awakened from my nap by a noise downstairs. I saw a crowd of people in protective clothing gathering under the building rumored to have a positive case. Many buses were parked on the opposite road. I quickly checked the WeChat group of the community residents and saw many people asking what had happened. The government control staff in the group did not explain anything and just told everyone to stay put and wait for notification. Once notified to move for quarantine, they must comply and not resist. They even said that based on their experience, those who leave first might still have a hotel to stay in, those who leave later might be sent to the cabin hospital, and those who resist would be directly arrested. I later learned that in order to ensure the smooth transfer of people in the entire building, the ratio of control staff to transfer staff was about 1:3, i.e., one policeman "escorted" three transfer personnel. The government control staff straightforwardly said in the WeChat group: "This is to prevent you from escaping."
Then I saw the messages posted by the transferred neighbors in the WeChat group. The doors and windows of the hotel had been sealed with wooden bars, and there was an unpleasant smell inside, and the bedding was also unclean. At this point, almost all the people who had not been transferred became nervous because they didn't know what had happened. It was already the fourth day of risk control, and everyone's nucleic acid test was negative. According to the control policies we knew, there shouldn't be a situation where people were transferred. Everyone asked the government control staff in the group. The control staff said they didn't know what had happened, and they were just executors of orders. The orders came from a government epidemic prevention command system. They did whatever the system told them to do. I suddenly felt a chill. I thought, what if the system has a bug and orders you to kill us, then we would die unjustly.
In the following days, I completely lost my previous calm and became frightened and anxious. I even vaguely felt what people in Nazi concentration camps felt. There were no standards, no explanations, no communication, only absolute obedience. In fact, we were all very cooperative with the quarantine, but the key is to give us some policy standards and explanations, otherwise, we all felt like lambs to be slaughtered with no control over our future.
After watching my neighbors being "escorted" away, I couldn't sleep anymore. I sat alone on the terrace, seeing a lot of fallen leaves scattered on the ground from the tree the bird planted for me (a tree that grew naturally, not one I purchased). The sunlight shone through the railing and cast onto the fallen leaves, creating an exceptionally serene atmosphere, which strongly contrasted with my state of mind. So, I took pictures of these beautiful moments with my phone and turned them into images to serve as my tranquillizers, as I was genuinely afraid of being transferred to some filthy place at any moment. I was worried that my fragile nervous and immune systems would make me seriously ill due to the inability to adapt. In the end, we neither received any explanation nor were transferred, but I still fell ill after the lockdown was lifted due to excessive tension.